I’m feeling a great deal of conflicting emotions. Scared, yet optimistic. Lonely, yet surrounded by support. Undeserving, yet so appreciative.
My thoughts are a jumble, but through it all I just want to do the right thing. I am trying to show that I am willing to do anything that is necessary to regain the trust of those who depend on me for their protection and support.
How can I ever be prepared? I have no idea what I’m getting myself into, but I have put my trust in your hands, as you have consistently asked me to do. If I get through this in one piece, I’ll get that tattoo you suggested as a reminder.
I honestly don’t know how you feel. The words you spoke Thursday were like a dagger through the heart, yet I understand why you said what you did. The most important thing is the safety of our loves ones, and you need to do what you must to ensure it.
Moms doing okay. Better now than earlier this week of course. This whole ordeal has been very trying on her, but she’s one of the strongest people I know.
The lecture was great, actually. I’d never done anything like that before and it was a great time. =) I met and had conversations with some really cool people, and I was gratified to see such a huge turnout in such a historically closed-minded setting.
As for the rest – there really isn’t much to report. Work is work, if its still there for me that is – though if its not I have many a backup plan. I’ll be ok on that front I think, either way. I had a long time to come up with such plans, and I used that time well.